im done searching...

-breathing and exhaling.. it feels good to be alive, AGAIN-

Thursday, July 20, 2006

QUOTES: love is sweeter the second time around...


This one's great..
Just read this!

Falling in love consists merely in uncorking the

imagination and bottling the common sense.
--Helen Rowland
Love teaches even asses to dance.
--French Proverb
And if you ask me what I see in him.
I will say...You know I really have no idea.
And that's the truth. But whatever it is that I don't know
my heart does and that's amazing.
--Anonymous
They say it's hard to let go but it's even harder to give
someone a second chance when the first time they
murdered your heart.
--Maggie
No matter how much you love someone you have to draw
a line to how much you will put up with and how long
you are going to hold on when everyone else is telling you
to let go.
--Maggie
And I finally realized I could care less about what other people
think about me because I'm with you, and all I truly care about is
the fact that I'm head over heals in love with you.
--Maggie
When we were layin on the couch and we were holding hands
and my head was on your chest and I was listening to your heartbeat
I couldn't help but wonder if it was as perfect for you as it was for me.
--Maggie
And I finally figured out how very wrong I was. And how very much I
am in love with and I swear no matter what you have done or what
you will do in the future I swear to love you and for as long as I
possibly can, I will love you with all
my heart.
--Maggie


Wednesday, July 19, 2006

FOR THE RECOR D...gosh!so sick of this!

just when i thought everything ive dremt of was exactly falling into place, like there's nothing more i could wish for and when everything i've ever imagined was starting to be real..that a kind of crap like this one happened. i really felt like heaven and earth joined their forces to squeeze me to the point that my bones were falling like a debris. like my heart has been pounded by a millions of tons of whatever it is. i dont know what exactly to say or if there's still anything to say. i wanted to scream, to yell and to shout to the whole world how foolish i am for letting him do this to me but it seems that i'm running out of words to say.all because i've let it all out by crying! no one except for my bestfriend knows exactly how i feel. she's seen me go through this before and here i am again. someone told me that it's not the love that i'm holding on to, it's the hope that one day, he'll change for me. everything is just a cycle. i'll love, then i'll get hurt, i'll try to move on but never really let go. i don't know what made me like this. "for the record", i hate saying that! i hope the next time i'll say this, it's the time that for the record, i am literally and emotionally being loved. i hope in no time, i'll get over this. but for now, i'll try every possible way to get him off my head and live life as if nothing like this happened. screw love!

Friday, July 14, 2006

a week called LIFE.


this pic really looks great. of course, great people are in here..haha! anyway, i missed these guys. these 2 guys here will be always be the men of my life, yeah..with pops too. speaking of men, he's (my honey) also included! just want you to know how lucky i am to have brothers like them. they are the ones who rock my world., enough to say that the world is such a big dump of shit without them. although we fight a lot, we argue over little things, we destroy each other's face (kidding!) we still love each other so much.. i already served the proofs! so i'm going back home tomorrow and again live each day of my life miles away from them but my short stay here made me realize how short life could be. that i should give importance to the people i love so much and love me too and treasure every second i spend with them.. like the sun's never gonna shine again after the rain had poured. wherever i go, it still feels like i'm home whenever i'm with them. it just scares me when i picture myself again sleeping and waking up without the high intensity of my mom's voice banging around the walls of the house, the shouting between my brothers that has become a pleasure to my ears and the never-ending corny jokes of my dad. jeez, it will never be a life for me! i love them so much..

Tuesday, July 11, 2006



BLIND..am i or am i not? im not speaking bout being literally blind but somehow, that's the case. i don't know what made me exactly look like a blind but im acting as if im one. not only im blind but also dumb. i've been dying to tell the world how stupid and foolish i have become since i've known him. and it's killing me that he's getting down to my nerves. ok,ok.. i don't know what im talking about. here is why this one's hard: im still in search for true love and the thought of having a boyfriend makes me feel emotionally secured. i hate waiting specially if there's nothing to wait for but still im waiting. i want to be with someone who'll not keep me guessing on what he really feels for me but he keeps me frustrated on what's going on between us...this is bullshit! i don't want to be ignored anymore..i have feelings too.crying puts me to sleep almost everyday and i hate waking up with my eyes sullen. i just want to be loved. i could never ask for more.